This is Henri Nouwen’s ‘secret journal’. It was written during the most difficult period of his life, when, following, the breakdown of a close relationship, he suddenly lost his self-esteem, his energy to live and work, his sense of being loved and even his hope in God. For the countless men and women who must live through the anguish and despair of broken relationships, or who suffer from the loss of a loved one, this book offers new courage, new hope, even new life.